“I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read and all the friends I want to see.” John Burroughs
So the day finally came…..I always thought I was prepared, I’ve experienced this before, so many families go through this and it’s just part of the job, I knew this before I got married, etc. But then I realized it’s not other people….it’s me and I’m sad, my children are sad and why do I have to witness my 6 yr old crying at the airport holding on to the love of his life, all he holds dear, his sense of security, his best play buddy and thensome walk away. It’s actually like going through the stages of grief in a way. I think I’ve moved quickly to “acceptance”…..well, only because one has to.
I received a book for Christmas that contains verses as words of encouragement for “busy” people…..given the fact that my spouse deployed the very next day would rank “busy” as an understatement of the year! So I found the book timely and love reading scriptures because no matter how many times I’ve heard them, I often receive new meaning depending on where I am in my life at the time. So another aspect of the book I found coincidental was the number of verses listed was close to the number of days of our deployment. So my plan is to take a verse each of these days and see what it has in store for me! It should be an interesting ride.
Day 1 – “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NKJV
Wow, when I read this at the end of today, I found it powerful because I really needed mercy and comfort. I felt so frustrated with my children this morning….and on our way to church no less. So when I asked them to forgive me for being irritable and stressed, they showed me much mercy and love. We had a family meeting and talked about how we can work better as a team (they are little, but my son plays sports so he loves anything with a “team” theme). I found that we all needed just a little comfort during this transition as we’re adjusting to our new paradigm. At first, I thought the word “tribulation” seemed too strong for my situation…..we are healthy, loving and have a good support system while apart. But one of its definitions is just a “trying experience” so I would say ours qualifies!
So tomorrow is a new day!